paper fiction

It is true. I won’t be able to write the book that resides my heart. I spend so much time dreaming about writing that I failed to initiate the first line. To begin with, I don’t know where to start. I hope in my wildest imagination to produce a fantasy but at the same time to write something profound, spiritually profound. But for each time I tried I end up appearing a fool whose immature thoughts shot back at each other like reversed bullets.

I love books and so want to make one that as each word unfolds the story; I create a world that is completely unique and unbelievable. But the readers push on to the final chapter, the last word and the ultimate closing to find out if this strange world exists. They will be disappointed because the world that I write about is the world we live in and it is not the special somewhere-out-there-planet that promises joy and happiness. In every situation, whether it is a daunting issue or a nagging conflict, there is no happy ending and a finite solution. There are only choices, awareness and incessant sacrifices to be made. This is the world we dwell and it only seems new and weird to most because we never dare to venture beyond the black and white and our pursuit of happiness.

With all of these crazy thoughts crooning in my mind, I never did go pass the philosophy of ideas to craft a story. And neither is the philosophy intelligent and convincing enough to stand as a book.

How shall one proceed? I am not seeking for formulas and won’t fall prey to tips on quick-success. There are no shortcuts and the only tip workable is to keep writing. Once upon a time I searched everywhere for muses. Inspiration! True inspiration is not a form. It does not come in the form of a person or represented in music. But it is the substance, the content and the experience that gives birth to a magical moment, which triggers the imagination. The listening to a particular piece of music brings about the surge of ideas. When I start to depend on the music, as if the music is a separate object from the experience, I no longer feel inspired. I feel bored and devastated.

It is time to start…

Humanity Prevails. Free Burma!

Stand with the Burmese! Stand with Freedom!

This small act, no matter how minute, is what we bloggers can do in spreading the word and possibly safe 54 million people from the cruelty and ruthlessness of an oppressive government. Do your part to stop the killing. Post this banner ad and the message below on your blog and website. Thanks. Peace!

Dear friends,

The emergency petition to stop the crackdown on peaceful protesters in Burma is exploding, with nearly 500,000 signers from every nation of the world. But the situation in Burma remains desperate, with reports of hundreds of monks being massacred and tortured. Burma's rulers have also killed and expelled international journalists, cutting off global media coverage of their cruelty.

China is still the key - the country with the most power to halt the Burmese generals' reign of terror. Avaaz is delivering the message this week with a massive ad campaign in major newspapers, beginning Thursday with a full page ad in the Financial Times worldwide, and in the South China Morning Post. The strength of the ad comes from the number of petition signers listed – can we reach our goal of 1 million signatures this week? The link to sign the petition and view the ad is below, forward this email to all your friends and family!

http://www.avaaz.org/en/stand_with_burma/u.php

China continues to provide key economic and military support to Burma's dictatorship, but it has been openly critical of the crackdown. Now we need the government to match words with actions.The ad paints a powerful moment of choice for China in its relationship with the world – will it be a responsible and respected member of the global community, or will it be associated with tyranny and oppression?

People power, on the streets of Burma, and around the world, can triumph over tyranny. Our strength is in our numbers, spread the word!

With hope and determination!!!

For the best local reporting on the situation in Burma, try these links:

http://www.irrawaddy.org

http://www.mizzima.com

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You can kill a man but you can't kill what he stands for.

shifting

Hi there! I have decided to stop posting photographs on this blog. From now on, I will post all photos on http://wendyinfp.multiply.com/

Thanks.

ultraman-type-country

I am not being mean but if you notice that the one thing the above 5 pictures have in common is that the buildings and trees look fake because they are too perfect. It appears to be a set from the Ultraman tv series. Have you watched those shows whereby both the hero and the villian wear a rubber suit and as they get into a fight, they destroy miniature houses, cars and aeroplanes? Yeah, the Power Rangers type. Whenever I visit this particular country which is not very far from where I am born, (hint hint) I can't help but to wonder as to how one tree can be so identical with another tree. I reckon much time must have been invested in trimming a plant following a meticulously drawn blueprint. I swear that the tree is not made out of plastic and people live and work in these symmetrical buildings. In fact, I even find that the people all think alike in a regimented fashion. I suddenly feel so uncivilised. Shame! Shame!

Hong Kong Insights

Sometimes somebody says something really small and it just fits into this empty place in my heart. Love is not laid down in a thesis but intuitively felt in a single moment.

In each tiny-minuscle DNA structure, there lies you.

Who is stronger? The one who eats, or the one that gets eaten? Take pride in the truth that we are both givers and takers.

We are all master illusionists.

If not now, when?